To deny your emotions the release they need is to deny yourself from being whole. The only problem with emotional responses comes from allowing them to control our lives. Making rash and irrational decisions.
Easier to cry when nobody can see. It takes a special kind of strength to show that weakness in front of people and still recognize that you’re no less a man.
We’re all weak and fragile when faced with a situation that we have no control over yet still impacts our lives in such a profound way.
It took me over a decade to overcome my aunt’s suicide when I was 9. She was only 5 yrs older than me, so it was more like losing a sister. I’m an only child. Only my mom(single parent) was more important in my life.
As @yoshi pointed out, you never really get over the loss. You just learn to live with it.
Perhaps your loss will prepare you to help someone later down the road. Someone that would likely end it all without your help. We can’t always know the “why?” (One of my major frustrations) but we can overcome the challenge and be stronger for it.
Time can’t heal all wounds, but it takes you closer to the reunion you desire…