Hey brother, I more than understand the smoking piece. I had 2 strokes 4/2016 and quit. 6 months of therapy and a vape kit worked for a while. Went back to work and I was at a pack a day again. I just enjoy smoking, it was always a reason to remove myself for 5” to collect my thoughts and walk back inside ready to kick ass and take names! After another stroke followed my carotid surgery 8/2017, I am done!!! Right on with smoking to supplement, only when the 14 meds don’t do the trick!! Being retired/disables at 40 sucks but at least I’m alive to bitch about it!!