Well thereās a lot of support here i see.
Sounds like your having a struggle there @Enlightened420.
The mind is like a well cut diamond with multiple facets.
The mind is not who we are.
Who we are is that that notices (awareness).
The skill key to the freedom of mind and all its facets.
Happy glad sad mad depressed suffering stoned elated horrified believing etc.
Is to become reunited as the watcher of every experience that happens because we have mind.
When we watching a movie how often do we witness the self watching the movie.
Also when watching the movie lets use a movie theater big screen in the audience watching.
How often do we pay attention to the screen the movies playing on.
Not often. The mind gets pulled out on the experience playing out on the screen.
Every day that screen plays a different movie.
As does the mind.
What we are is the screen thats what we need yes another facet of mind needs to do.
Focus on the screen as well as watching the movie spontaneously.
The more this happens the more separation begins to happen between anyone of the facets of mind playing out at any one time and of course there is more than likely more than 1 movie playing at the same time.
Mind is very clever.
It can even mimic enlightenment to get its way.
Mind left to itself will create separation judgment pain suffering.
It took over a long time ago.
For most humans the mind is in the drivers seat who we are ( the observer) is in the back seat long forgotten it even exists.
The mind and body are 2 sides of the same coin.
Some one one day when i was suffering my mind was racing totally obsorbed into the story the experience no separation.
I bla bla bla for 20 min at the end she wrote on a piece of paper and pushed it across to me to read.
I read it ādont believe anything you thinkā
Is what was written on that piece of paper.
Nothing more was needed to be said.
As i left she said can i take that bag of garbage out with you as you leave.
A real bag of kitchen garbage.
When we can watch the experience not stop it just watch we are there.
As the body heals the mind moves.
As stress desolves from the body the mind moves.
Said another way it thinks. Lots.
Sometimes lots and lots and lots.
This is good its a sign the bodies healing thoughts are a byproduct of stress desolving in the body.
If this process is blocked the body and mind become stuck.
What blocks it.
The mind just another facet of it.
The same mind that creates suffering also wants us to be free.
Twisted as hay.
Become the watcher then at some point the watcher and the watched transcend.
Then what?
But hay dont believe anything ive said.
Its all about experience yours.
Who you are is fine.
Always has been always will be.
No mistakes.
You are a very Enlightened soul @Blackmoon, Iām resonating with what you are saying,
someday I will attain that goalā¦
Two become Oneā¦
Then One becomes ALLā¦
You are very wise Blackmoon, please donāt ever hesitate to share your light and wisdom
We are all enlightened how can we not be.
Without the movie screen there is no movie.
We are that that doesnt change.
The screen.
The movie constantly changes.
It not some were to get some day we already that.
We just ignoring it. Forget.
It not for a special few there is no separation other than what mind wants us believing and creating.
We are that that is.
Every thing else is a story.
And stories are great right.
Its just whoās choosing the story
Whoās listening to the story in the same head.
Funny.
Praise gratitude love conpassion
4 upward spiraling emotions of the universe.
The universe wow omnipresents infinite endless peace.
We are love.
At least the weather forecasters say she will move quickly through and not just sitting on one place and hammering it. Please be careful and safe everybody. Mother nature is not one to be played with in this form.
You got here before I did, so thank you for making this a great place. Even though we wouldnāt know each other if we passed on the streets, you all are friends to me.
Peace and Love Gromies,
I have received all of your love and kindness, my inner flame begins to burn brightly once moreā¦
I AM prepared nowā¦
The struggle for me had been ongoing for several months, sneaking back into my life,
gradually darkening my perspective and stealing my harmony and joy. My day started out good,
my favourite day of the week,
then that evening, my wife and I had a silly insignificant disagreement. Then I was in the grip of despair and could not break the relentless hold. My thoughts were not my own, they were dark and poisonous,
I started thinking about how to painlessly end the suffering,
the voice was telling me I have fought long enough and deserve peaceā¦
Very subtle and seductive the thoughts continued to invade my mindā¦
Realisation struck, then I checked my consciousness, stopping the incessant chatter and manipulation, I began mental exercises to regain control, I told my wife what had happened, then I was standing in the shower, a tidal wave of emotions burst from within,
like a dam wall breaking,
I wept uncontrollablyā¦
Then I was in my wifeās arms and she whispered, I will never let goā¦
Not only am I blessed with a wonderful wife, I am grateful for the amazing friendships that have been cultivated here in Weedville and
off-line, I appreciate each of you
@pptrsha1,
I stared darkness in the face unafraid, thank you for giving me strength, it saddens me to see you having troubles, please talk to us if you feel the need