Hi, my name is Neo.
I recently became interested in a wonderful new hobby. Growing marijuana.
I knew I needed a basic set up to get started. A tent, ventilation and lighting.
After a few google searches I found plenty of review websites. After buying a tent and exhaust fan, I went looking for lighting. I found a great website that had detailed reviews and links to directly purchase the light off of Amazon. How convenient I thought.
The reviews were amazing. I was only growing in a 3x3, so I know I didn’t need the 1200w light so I opted for the 900w light. I was set! And it was under a hundred bucks!
I cracked my seeds and started the process. I was off to the races. Or so I thought.
I had bought my seeds off ILGM. So I returned to find some info on the strain, THC content or Indica/Sativa Ratio, yield maybe… I don’t remember.
What I do remember is finding the support forum. What a wealth of knowledge! I decided to show off my new set up and start a grow journal. I received tons encouragement and advice.
And then someone pointed out my light, saying it was inadequate.
What? My light?
I felt insulted!
It had great reviews! It was 900 watts! It was the pinnacle of technological advancement. A 21st century miracle!
I spent hours of research on Amazon!
Then after a few minutes of research on the ILGM forum, I realized I was lied to. The reviews were BS.
I felt ashamed. I was defeated. I was inadequate.
I questioned my manhood. I questioned my intelligence.
Then I found out there were more of us. And that’s why I’m here.
To share my story. To share my recovery. To reach out to others and help with their recovery too.
I’m not ashamed to say I bought a Blurple anymore.
I am, however, proud to say I have moved on. My girls are under quality LED lighting and thriving. I’m now adequate. And maybe even a little proud of who i am again. And proud of what my girls have become.