I started smoking when I was 14 out of pure rebellion. It’s part of the reason I don’t like most teenagers now. It sucks to have the proof of how much of an asshole I was!
After doing time, I realized that me and alcohol don’t mix well. Being on probation, I stayed away from anything that would lead me back. Twice was enough.
As soon as I was released from paper, I enjoyed some smoke with a friend and found I could handle my kids much better. When I got with my wife, they were 13 and 10. Being the step dad was hell in the beginning!! I’ll kill for them now and they feel the same for me.
I find that I generally don’t like people. Smoking helps me overcome the anger of encountering stupid. I seem to run across stupid a lot.
I’m not the kind of person that trusts the medical field. I will go through most other options before seeing a doctor. That’s the reason I haven’t been able to get disability. No medical history since I only use the emergency room and that’s only for diagnosis. Damn their pills!!!
Overall, I smoke because it makes me a better person to be around. I’m more willing to listen. I think more instead of just blindly reacting to my anger. I’m more forgiving because I become more introspective and can see all of my own flaws.
Oh yeah, and I like to get high as $#!+ !!!